Journal+Entry+3+HWK

**13 February 1942** //Oh man! Oh man! We’ve been done for! After the main British forces fell back form Malaya in late January, the battle here’s been just a huge mess. Supply routes were cut off, ships sunk, airfields bombed the hell out of. We’ve been had for. Those damn Japs! Those bloody rodents! Why am I here? Are we all going to die? I’ve heard stories of the POW treatment by the Japs, and I sure in hell do not want to be a POW of those heartless rats. Christ Christ Christ! I don’t know what to think; I don’t know what to do. Surrender is not an option, or is it? I don’t want to be massacred like the Chinese. What’s going to happen? Jesus, oh God. Oh man, they need an extra hand at the hospital: A new wave of wounded just came in. Oh man, oh man!//

//All the blood made me immediately nauseous, and I still feel a bit queasy at the moment. Soldiers and civilians were strewn across white cloths, stained with crimson and ruby. A nearby airfield had been bombed by Japanese airplanes, and there were delays in the transportation. Several died along the way. All these deaths, why couldn’t they’ve been avoided? Why hadn’t we been given the supplies we knew we needed? If they had placed us here in this country called Singapore, shouldn’t the people in charge have at least a bit of respect, sympathy, for those actually stationed to fight off the Japanese hoard? They’ve got the armor and ships; we’ve only have our bloody feet to ship the dead and dying. The Japs are coming, and there is no preventing that. The only way we can stop them from killing off the entire island of Singapore is through the aid of England. I, however, don’t think there will be any aid coming to us at such a time as right now. What can I do? What can we, the forces in Singapore do? Words been around that surrender is being considered. I’m not so sure. I’ve never been sure about my life, always getting what I had not expected, and I hope that this time, what had seemed to be unfavorable paths that I was forced to take will finally shed some light upon my future.//